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Ragazza Triste’s Quandary

Ragazza Triste

 

I am confused, tired and demented. I just feel so lonely right now. I keep thinking about negative things, my weaknesses, judgment from other people, the pressure of life is just too much to take. I feel like I am just existing, without purpose, my heart is filled with doubts and dismay. I don’t know what to do. It’s frustrating because I thought I’m okay.

I was supposed to be more active here, I am done writing the Blogger Spotlight, I only needed to post it, the Blogger Award and the Kooky Tag are both completely finished, but I don’t know, I haven’t been able to post them because my mind is somewhere, lost and senile. I just don’t understand any of it at all. I don’t know why I am doing this, not anymore.

I am sorry. Please understand.

I feel embarrassed to say this, but I feel like no matter what I do, it won’t make any difference.

I hope you understand, darlings. I’ll fix this. Soon. 😦

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  1. Henry Ford didn’t think his car made a difference until he went places. Alexander Graham Bell didn’t think his phone made a difference until people reached out and touched someone. And a blogger named Ragazza didn’t think what she was doing was making a difference until she changed a platform and brought people together.🌹
    Your weakness are your strengths lovely, don’t let negativity of other people get to you, never let other peoples failure determine your success. What you’ve been doing has already changed people and made differences, just because you don’t see immediate results don’t mean it isn’t happening. It’s a big world, if you changed half, you won’t see it if you live on the other side lovely. Don’t feel depressed, feel great about your projects because you’ve excited so many of your supporters and we’re behind you.❤️. Don’t set deadlines on yourself beautiful, just get your projects out at your discretion and we’ll be here waiting to support them. You have far to many positive supporters to be affected by a negative deflector and you’re to strong for that. You’re making a difference, trust me…you’re tying more bloggers together than knots can. Stay beautiful like you are and keep doing what you’re doing lovely.❤️🌹

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    1. Hey, I am so sorry for the late reply. This is a very touching and motivating comment, your comments made me feel better, it made me think about my views on life, that some people have it worse, so I have to be grateful, I may feel awful today but it’s not a permanent feeling. Thank you so much, I am really happy because someone, or some people cares for me.

      These coming days, I’ll be posting different activities, I hope that you could participate, I am hoping that these things will make us all more interactive. 🙂

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      1. I’m happy I could bring a smile to your face just like you bring a smile to so many. No need to apologize for your late reply lovely, you’re worth the wait🌹. Always feel better because you are a wonderful person and so many people do care for you, there’s always a rainbow after every storm.❤️
        I’m looking forward to your post and your activities and I look forward to interacting and participating. I love all your blog activities and all your supporters do as well.😊

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    1. Yes, I will. Thank you so much for the encouraging words, I didn’t reply earlier because I was just busy thinking about a lot of things. I know what I should do now, I realised a lot about me and I am happy to know that y’all are supportive of everything that I do.

      I will be posting 4 activities for us, I will be more active and I will try to know each of you better.

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    1. Yes, I did it a couple of times, I can say that I did feel better. Thank you for the support and for your comment, it means a lot to know that some people really cares.

      I’ll be more active, I have prepared some fun activities for us and I hope these will be useful to get to know y’all better.

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  4. With all the wondering about what’s going on in the world, what to believe, and where to put your focus, a lifetime of learning brings you full circle to realize you alone, had the power all along. If I was lonely, I would take advantage of that. Being alone can give perspective of the beauty of life, and the fragility of it too. You being you is good enough. That is where happiness resides. Hang in there dear!

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    1. Yes, I’ve been wandering through circles but I feel a lot better now, I lost myself for a moment there but I know what I want and I will never lose the reason why I started blogging, that is to help others and to improve as well.

      Thank you, Jim. You really know what to say. I have also prepared some fun activities for all of us, I hope this will connect us more. Thank you!

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  5. I’ve been going through a little of this in my real life. I know my family supports and is there for me, but when you are isolated at work, especially from those you thought where your freinds, life can start to feel narrow.

    What I have done is to redouble my self in other activities. I’ve really started tonpush myself in my workout routines, I’ve pushed myself to become more driven in my job performance and I’ve reached out to freinds outside of work.

    In addition, I have started writing letter and notes to the coworkers who have disappointed me. These writings are never being sent, but rather I write them at the end of the day, put them in my desk and re-read them in the morning – aloud, to myself and give myself permission to get angry ir sad or both. Then I rip the paper into very small pieces and put it in the trash bin. This has done more for my mental heath that anything else I have tried.

    I know everyone’s situation is different, but I can tell you that I do read your blog and I enjoy it immensely. Please know that you are making a difference to others.

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    1. Thank you so much, I feel a lot better now, I read all the comments and I know that it’s cruel to feel this way, I can’t help it, but now I know how to handle stress better. I gotta go back to being my old self and find the motivation to be stronger.

      Thank you so much for the support. I will be more active and engaging. I have prepared some fun posts for all of us, I wish these activities would make us all feel more connected.

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  6. Give yourself time to find what you need inside of yourself to be happy. We all have to step back at times and understand what we face on our terms not on other peoples terms. Besides i agree with everyone so far your blogs have helped lots of bloggers on here. Stay focused and happy Ragaaza !!

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    1. I understand now. I may have felt a little bit empty and without purpose but I am still lucky, I have you guys, my family, everyone who knows and who cares about me and I guess I don’t have to feel alone, after all.

      I also prepared some fun stuff for my page, this I hope would make us know more about everyone.

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      1. I am glad you found all this out Ragazza, Never lose sight of your new found riches in life. We are all just as rich having you in our lives my friend !!

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    1. Thank you, Zeina, I am trying, I haven’t been able to talk to you but know that I am always here as a friend.

      Maybe you’ve seen the activities that will be posted on my page very soon, I would like you to be a part of it. Thank you, Zeina.

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      1. Thank you for everything you do! You keep this place alive 😀
        ♥♥Yes, I saw some incredibly interesting stuff!!! I know what it’s like to have all the activities you love going on at the same time. It’s exciting and overwhelming!!! It’s been happening to me that I’m forcing myself to go to bed earlier…lol
        But you also have to be careful you don’t burn down your energy …Take it one event at a time!
        I’m so eager to see what you planned and I’m here for you as well dear ♥♥ I’m so grateful for you!♥♥♥♥♥

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  8. Write what you can when you can. You have 15 people at least ‘liking’ this post and many more reading it. Your words will make a difference to someone. Someone will relate to what you say. And just one person reading is still worth the writing.
    We writers all go through the depths at times.
    We keep writing whether anybody reads because we are writers.
    Keep on going as things can get better
    G:)

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    1. Yes, it will get better, Sir. I know it would. I am just happy because reading all the comments, it made me realize that I am not alone, I could be lonely but this too shall pass. I know that now.

      I want to know everyone as much as I can so I have prepared some activities for the community, I wish that this simple act could make a difference to improve our interactions.

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  9. Dear Ragazza – you are not an object to be fixed. You are not broken. You are growing, and it is painful at the moment. You are a beautiful soul and I have faith you will find your way.

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    1. Thank you, VJ, this is sweet and comforting. I know, I have to treat myself with patience and respect, I guess I am feeling bad because some of the people I cared about gave me so much pain and I can’t accept it, but I know how to deal with the hurt now. Thank you.

      I really wanna know everyone so I made a lot of fun activities for all of us, in this way, I will have a chance to get to know everyone better and to also introduce other people in our circle.

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  10. It’s okay, Steph.
    Everything will be fine.
    Okay. it’s not only you ’cause to be honest, I also had an emotional breakdown the other day.
    I was so negative when I came home after school like I’m questioning “Is this even worth it? ”
    ’til now I’m still recovering myself.
    Hope you too will. 🙂
    We’ll always be there no matter what.

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    1. Thank you, Thony. We’re friends on Twitter so I think you know how I feel. The Blogger Spotlight is still on, don’t worry, I will still feature your page, I can’t pass on that very important chance. He he.

      I also prepared a lot of fun stuff for you guys, I hope I get to see you there. 🙂

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      1. You’re very much Welcome. 🙂
        It’s just okay if Blogger-Spotlight- featuring-me post will be delayed. That can wait though.
        And also about that fun stuffs you prepared, I’ll surely join that 🙂

        Nice to see you back.

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    1. I am back. Thank you, darling. You know how much I love this community, I could never ever say goodbye to y’all.

      I actually prepared some activities for us, this I think would help us know more about ourselves. 🙂

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    1. Thank you for the love and hugs, darling. You always never fail to make the sweetest comment and for that I am grateful.

      I prepared some fun activities for the community, I hope that this will be a chance to be more interactive and engaging.

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  13. My dear Angel this Sad time will pass and darkness will subside. You are an amazing person and you have already done so much good on WordPress. You have linked bloggers together and touched so many lives already. Just hang in there honey and things will definitely shift for the better. Come on come on give me a big smile now say cheese. Love you😘😘😘♥️♥️

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    1. I am smiling now as I read your comment, darling, you and Joker are good and sweet people and I am so lucky I met you, you bring light in everything you say. Thank you so much.

      Anyway, since I will be more active now, I’ll be posting activities and stuff on my page and I hope this will help us be more interactive.

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  14. Nothing wrong with you or these thoughts. You’re human.
    Inside you there is a goddess. She sleeps mostly in this ridiculous plane of existence we dwell upon, but awakens when you need her. She’ll come to your aid when you least expect it and you’ll explode with what your soul truly needs. I promise ❤️

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  19. Awww, I hope you cheer up soon. You’re one of the smiles on the internet. You have a heart that brings happiness and love to other people. Your page is bright and cheery and full of optimism. Visiting your page is like watching the sun peek from behind a puffy white cloud in a deep blue sky. We can’t help but smile with you while we read your beautiful words. This too shall pass and you’ll be back to your lovely, joyful self.
    We’re with you all the way. ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

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    1. Aww. Will. I know you’d say that. Thank you so much for being a positive aura in my posts. You know how much I admire you as a writer and to be able to receive or read a comment from you is just amazing.
      I have done a lot of fun activities to be posted on my page and I can’t wait to share it with you.

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  20. You were on purpose with a purpose for a purpose, Every thought that enters your mind is not your thought, There is a battle being waged against your soul. What you have received in the spirit is being questioned by the natural you. Open your spiritual eyes and declare I am not what I do, I am wonderful and beautiful and this alone makes you effective. You have planted seeds, surely they will grow! Tell the enemy that sent those negative thoughts, they are a lie! You are love and you have love. Tell depression, you don’t have the time. Take care and don’t get down on yourself. you have done nothing wrong. Glad you are transparent, just listen to these voices of reason and then believe them.
    hugs and love!

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  21. My prayers are with you sister! If you ever need prayer, or you would like to talk with a minister, please always feel free to contact me. Take some time to rest & be good to yourself. Sometimes we just need to relax & recuperate. God bless you sister!

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  22. Hey there, you’ll be okay. We’re all bound to feel disinterested in life at times. That doesn’t mean this feeling is everlasting. You can still take control of life by making yourself happy. Take a little break from everything that’s holding you down. I hope you’ll do better than ever in no time!
    P.S
    A little cheesecake might do the trick! It always works for me 😁

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    1. Ha ha. I know, I will try. Thank you, darling. I have realised a lot of things and I can say that I am much stronger now. Thank you so much.

      I also made a lot of fun stuff for all of us here. Soon. 🙂

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  25. I hope you’re reading the comments. Everyone here is supporting you in their own way. I don’t know you’re situation, but I hope you know people care about you.

    All I want you to know is we all are lonely in life for one reason or another. Good or bad reason. We all have to work through it and then pick ourselves up and start the day over again. I speak from experience, if you need to talk to someone please call someone. There are many helplines just google the one that best fits you! If you can’t figure it out, call me I’ll help you find what you need. At 61, I’ve been there in your shoes. Seriously, call me 937-469-0093 in the US. Take care my friend!

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    1. I am reading the comments, dear. I am also happy to know that you guys really care for me, I can’t thank you enough for taking the time to comfort me, I will not waste that. I am grateful. Truly.

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  27. You’d be amazed at the number of people that have experienced all that and more, I have. Many still experience it presently. You will figure it out and you will come out stronger and smarter. Hold tight

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    1. Yes, I know and I have to be stronger. I will not lose myself again. I actually prepared a lot of fun stuff for you guys, I wanna let you know that your thoughts and your concern matters to me a lot.

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  30. My dear Ragazza

    As we have weather conditions in which we have to face rain and wind, sunshine and storms, night and days – this all is temporary and will pass too. However, how could a flower grow without rain? Also those things that make us sometimes unhappy, fill us with doubts, make us small – this is also a kind of medicne, also bitter sometimes but once when overcome it makes us stronger, dear friend.
    Simply I embrace you in my heart and send you all good wishes – may you overcome the dark clouds in your mind.
    From heart to heart
    Didi

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      1. That is fine, my friend – life is like a roller-coaster but ups and downs are there to become aware that both are necessary to learn from – so now enjoy the sunshine on you, my dear Ragzza – take this bath and keep it for a rainy day 🙂

        Fun activities are always welcome as they make us smile and laugh 🙂

        You are also very sweet in your kind 🙂
        Have a great day
        Didi

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  32. Hey – your posts are bits & pieces of you that you’re willing to share.. we all are grateful for that.. just breathe – relax and don’t worry about pleasing others..
    Enjoy the moments

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  33. I totally understand I think by no means are you alone in the way you feel. Its what I face every day. Just remember you are doing well and in time you will get to do the things you need to do, only do them if you want to though… hugs ❤

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  34. Everything happens for a reason, and we get lost in our journey in life. If we can look within and face our fears, we may be able to walk out of them. It’s easier said than done but if we don’t try, we have no chance at all.

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  37. Hmm.. I’ve been here a thousand times. Not even in writing but just generally in life. But somehow, His always pulls me out, I don’t even know how He does it. But then.

    Girl, you are a great person. I mean, we are all following you, cheering and rooting for you! You’ve got a family and that counts for something!

    It’s OK to feel a little down sometimes, we’ve all been there. But remember and say it to your face everytime, I am beautiful, joyful and nothing is gonna bring me down.

    Lastly have a worry box. You are a writer so you know how writing helps to de-stress. Write all your worries and drop them in the box. Keep that away. Later on, it is such joy to go through and see how those worries have gone away.

    I know I said lastly before, you can reach out if you want someone to talk to. adaamarae@gmail.com is my mail. Too bad wordpress doesn’t do private messaging.

    Hang in there babe! 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

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    1. Aww. That is so sweet and thoughtful of you, it’s nice to know that someone really cares, this community has showered me so much love more than I could ever imagine and I am so so happy for that.

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  38. One more thing, READ ALL YOUR COMMENTS. Seriously, it’s encouraging. Read it everyday if you can. Helps you know that we got you. And we love you.

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  40. This hurts to read, friend. I have been in that place many times and I am there on and off these days; I feel lonely; I have few friends that I talk to and life just feels so complicated. But please don’t ever be embarrassed, ok? You write as little as you want or as much as you want or none at all; no one is judging you. I hope things get better for you; I hope you find peace in writing. We’re all different but writing has made me feel so much better. Just know you are worthy and this will pass ; you just have to have faith and keep moving forward; whether you post about it or not. You are my thoughts

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  41. I know it’s hard when things make us doubt our gifts but as I look at this page I see you have 98 comments!! You are loved, sister! All of these folks believe in you. Hugs.

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  42. Sometimes we need to slow down or even stand still to make progress. Buddha didn’t get enlightened by pacing around the tree 🙂 It’s ok to not make progress and it’s ok to let go of goals. Nothing is linear in this life and everything we need is already here. Go easy on yourself and hope you are feeling better.

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